Loving and hating PMS

HATING PMS:

1. Craving for foods that make me fat
2. MOOD SWINGS (one minute I’m happy, the next cranky)
3. Emotionally sensitive (I cry easily over small things)
4. I tend to eat a lot (I sometimes feel unsatisfied no matter how much I already ate)
5. the feeling of BLOATEDNESS (it comes along with eating a lot)
6. Feeling sluggish and uncreative the whole day
7. back pains
8. I tend to eat a lot.
9. I tend to eat a lot.
10. I tend to eat a lot.

LOVING PMS:

1. Having the reason to bitch around
2. I have the excuse to pig out and eat all I want
3. I can cry over the simplest things
4. I can excuse myself from strenuous activities like jogging and exercise
5. I can pig out
6. I can pig out
7. I can pig out

It’s my turn to thank you

You have constantly thanked me and expressed your gratitude for making you happy. I am not really sure why or how I make you happy but still, you’re welcome.

Now that I think of it, I realized I haven’t told you how much you make me happy nor have I thanked you for making me feel special. Those simple text messages telling me how much you miss me is enough to make my day. And whenever I tell you I missed you too, rest assured that I mean it every time I say it. (Mga style mo. Nagpapamiss pa lalo. Hahaha.)

Words aren’t enough to describe how special you are to me. (oo. Ginagaya ko style mo). I almost lost hope and was on the verge of giving up when you taught me and made me realize that I can still find happiness.

I know one of these days you’ll drop by my blog and read this entry (bilang sabi mo fan kita hahaha).

Lugi ako. Hahahaha. Alam mo mga thoughts ko. Yung sayo NO IDEA ako. Ang hirap pa mangfish sayo. Hehehe.

UP FAIR

We went to the UP fair last February 13. We had fun though the organizers had to cut the program short because of the JJs (Jumping JOLOGS) who destroyed the barricades around the fair.

We were together until 3 in the morning. I am happy that he was finally able to let his orgmates know that we’re dating. He held my hand, kissed me and greeted me a Happy Valentine’s day. (I was certainly happy that day).

The next day, I he asked me to meet him in Maginhawa after my exam in Chemistry. He gave me cake and a single Ecuadorian rose. I didn’t expect him to give me anything for Valentine’s day.

BLISS

I wish he would stop making it hard for both of us. I decided to let go and move on because I realized that I could find my happiness in somebody else. I am happy with the guy I like right now. Even though I’m still not sure of his intentions and I don’t have any assurance if he has feelings for me, I am contented with the thought of knowing that somebody knows my worth and gives the time and effort to make me feel that I am important. It’s too soon for me to tell that I am already in love with him… But if what’s happening right now would continue, sooner or later the flirting and ‘bolahan’ would eventually lead to a serious relationship (hehehe tamang pagfifeeling lang ako! Hahahaha).

I’ve waited and suffered long enough to make the right decision of letting go and moving on. I made myself forget all the pain and hurt that I felt. I am not doing this for revenge or just to make him feel what he made me feel back then. As much as possible, I don’t want him to go through the pain that I went through. I don’t want to be a selfish jerk who loves seeing someone cry and get hurt because of me.

Don’t blame me if I made the decision of finding my happiness with somebody else. After pain and sorrow, I know there comes healing, contentment and eventually, bliss. Let me be. Letting go would make me happy. I wish he would stop hurting himself and realize that he’ll find someone else.

HAPPY

THANKS FOR THE ROSE AND FOR THE CAKE .

After 1 hour

INCIDENT ONE:

I got to my 9am class 30 minutes late, but someone else got in later than me.

9:40am (the girl came in the classroom) There were two girls beside me talking.

           GIRL1: Pag nalalate na ko, di na ako pumapasok. Para kasing nababastos ung prof nun.

 

 Huwaw ate. Natamaan ako dun. Aray. 

INCIDENT TWO:

As i was walking to engineering from AS, nakasalubong ko tong group of people sa beta way. Nagkekwentuhan sila. There were 3 girls and 2 boys (ung isa gay). One guy was telling them something and the gay person remarked:

Grabe puntong Davao mo!

as in aloud niya sinabi yun ha. So what’s wrong kung may punto ka? So kapag ako lumabas ung puntong Laguna ko gaganunin din ako? Perpekto kasi siya eh noh. 

INCIDENT THREE:

Kausap ko ung friend ko asking about the calculator na inorder niya as org ko. Habang naguusap kami, may 2 girls na umakyat sa stairs. Suot nila? white shorts, green top ands slippers. (at ganun din suot ko!) asbi nung friend ko:

San kayo sasayaw?

hahaha.. pambihira talaga. Ang dami ng nangyari. At 1030am pa lang. 1 oras pa lang ang nakakalipas simula makarating ako sa school pero ang dami ng nangyari kagad Hahaha.

Yum Yum

PANDESAL + CAPPUCCINO

=  LOVE

Too Lazy

I’ve been to lazy to go online these past few days. Schoolworks are piling up and I have two exams next week. I really don’t have the spare time and energy to blog.

Anyway, I’ve decide to summarize everything that happened since last Sunday — since Sunday is a weekend and nothing interesting happened (except that I bought chocolate cake for my sister and I ATE half of it), I’ll skip Sunday and proceed to Monday.

Last Monday was my sister’s 21^st birthday. I bought the cake during the weekends (the store where I bought it from is in QC and YOGI went with me there) and gave it to her as an early birthday gift. I didn’t have the chance to spend the day with my family since I have to leave early for my 9am class.

Nothing particularly special happened yesterday and today. I don’t have much too share and you’ll be bored to death if I tell you what happened to me in class. Anyway, as soon as I finish with my exams and schoolwork, I’d give more time to blogging.

January 17, 2009

January 17, 2009

            Woke up feeling good and happy. I promised myself last night that I’d wake up early to go jogging but I woke up late anyway.

            Just like what YOGI promised, he accompanied me in Maginhawa to buy cake for my sister. As usual, torpe pa din siya. I had fun hanging out with him.

            Last night was one of those few times where KIRORO would admit his mistake and apologize for whatever he has done. I wasn’t asking for his apology, but he gave it anyway. I wasn’t able to reply to him because I slept early.

January 16, 2009

January 16, 2009

            T.G.I.F! Yahoo.. Tomorrow’s a weekend — 2 days of rest for me again.

            We had  a quiz in my GE1 subject and I had to cram 3 lectures (2 which I have missed) so that I’d pass. I was unprepared for the 1^st quiz and I got 5 out of 15 questions. I photocopied all the slides that the professor left in the department and crammed for half an hour. I only got 4 mistakes out of 20 questions. Improvement, eh? J

            I saw YOGI’s dimples for the first time today. I was talking with one of his friends and I saw him looking at me, smiling. I intentionally ignored him and pretended he wasn’t there. He texted me after a few minutes telling me that their organization was giving out free lunch but I had to decline since I already ate. *Sayang. Dapat nakatipid pa ko hehehe*

            My sister’s birthday is on the 19^th. I’m going to buy her a cake and YOGI promised to accompany me tomorrow to buy one.

            Joyce and I hung out together after our classes. It seemed like a long time ago since the last time I REALLY TALKED to her. She and her boyfriend broke up recently and I wasn’t there during the first few days and weeks when she needed me. I didn’t only give her words of wisdom and comfort, but I also learned a lot from her as well. Kiroro and I have broken up since April last year and we’re still seeing each other. These past few days, I have been giving it a thought of how to tell him I wanted the freedom I deserve so long pa. I just don’t know where to start and where to get the strength to do so. He and I had a fight earlier this afternoon and I thought it could probably be a start for our breakup part 2. Hopefully I could decide by Monday of what I’d do.

January 15, 2009

January 15, 2009

            I had fun in my chemistry lab today. It was fun kidding around with the freshmen and playing with the broken faucet in our room.

CLASSMATE: naku kailangan natin ng water pokemon para maayos yun gripo

ME: si *imitating squirtle’s voice* SQUIDWARD.

****silence****

CLASSMATES: *sabay nagtawanan* Diba si squirtle yun?! Hahaha.. kelan pa nagging pokemon si squidward?!

Oh yeah. They made fun of me. Hahaha..

            Despite the laughters and fun I had today, I felt miserable too. YOGI ignored me when I saw him in the cafeteria. I was the first one to say hi to him and I texted him afterwards that he was being suplado. He told me he thought that I was still mad at him. I don’t get it why he thinks that I am holding grudges against him. He didn’t reply to me again after that. Until now I am mustering all of my self-control just not to grab my phone and ask him what his problem is. My friend’s right. He’s PAASA talaga.

January 14, 2009

January 14, 2009

            I didn’t see YOGI today. He didn’t even text me the whole day. Nagiging paasa na naman siya. Nothing much really happened today. Test results in geology were given and sadly, I failed the first exam. But instead of treating it as a failure (like I always used to), I took it as a challenge to do better next time. I am disheartened, yes. But treating it as a downfall won’t really help me to do better next time.

            Hmmm… I am still trying to think of what happened the whole day, but I really can’t recall anything that would catch your attention. It was just another ordinary day, nothing special happened.

January 13, 2009

January 13, 2009

            I finally had a good night sleep since I didn’t have much to do today. I had the chance to relax and chill the day off. I found out that YOGI has moved on from the recent break-up with his girlfriend of 8 years. He asked me if I have moved on with KIRORO. I said I already did but he wouldn’t believe me. He said that it was obvious that I still have hang-ups with my ex boyfriend. Now it’s just making me think that I really should let go of KIRORO already.

            I ate cheeseburger meal from McDonalds. It’s actually my 5^th meal for today. I am eating too much, and am too lazy to exercise to lose weight.

            I finally had a good night sleep since I didn’t have much to do today. I had the chance to relax and chill the day off. I found out that YOGI has moved on from the recent break-up with his girlfriend of 8 years. He asked me if I have moved on with KIRORO. I said I already did but he wouldn’t believe me. He said that it was obvious that I still have hang-ups with my ex boyfriend. Now it’s just making me think that I really should let go of KIRORO already.

            I ate cheeseburger meal from McDonalds. It’s actually my 5^th meal for today. I am eating too much, and am too lazy to exercise to lose weight.

January 12, 2009

January 12, 2009

I just found out that I passed the 1^st exam in my ES11 subject, but I really had a hard time answering the 2^nd exam. I’m expecting a low grade but I promised myself that I would do my best in the 3^rd exam. Just like what YOGI promised me last Friday, he gave me cake today. I didn’t ask him to since he already gave me cake as a birthday present a week ago.

I really can’t remember much of any thing happy that happened today since I was too engrossed in studying for the exam.

January 10, 2009

January 10, 2009

-          it’s a weekend. Yahoo!

-          I woke up late this morning J

-          I found out last night that YOGI’s concerned about me. Hahaha..

-          I tried to teach my nephew how to say ‘tita’. He responded by saying ‘ta’ sabay pa-cute.

-          YOGI asked how my day was

-          Finished studying one chapter included in my ES11 exam

-          Ate two slices of chocolate cake

January 9, 2009

January 9, 2009

-          finished off the cake

-          finally done with Geology11 exam

-          Saw YOGI twice. J

-          He promised to give me another slice of cake on Monday

-          I missed my nephew. Saw him again after one week of being away from home

-          IM FINALLY GOING TO SLEEP IN MY OWN BED AGAIN (–,)zzzzzzzz

January 8, 2009

JANUARY 8, 2009

-          YOGI gave me a late present for my birthday (chocolate mousse cake)

*yes it was very thoughtful of him to give a present for my birthday. It was also the first time that we REALLY TALKED. Hinatid niya ako hanggang boarding house.

- cold weather (wanted to sleep some more)

- Ate lunch with KIRORO

- hung out with mah CWTS girlfriends. We ate isaw and drank shake (yes even though the weather was cold)

- had a good night sleep. Finally.

- I finally had the guts to turn down KIRORO with his whims. (it’s a relief)

January 7, 2009

January 7, 2009

            First of all, allow me to give nicknames to the two different guys that I’ve been mentioning and highlighting for this past few days. I will name the guy that I have been with for almost two years now ‘Kiroro’ while the guy I like will be YOGI. One of these days I’ll tell the story behind the nickname KIRORO.

- I woke up late and wasn’t able to prepare for my first subject. I didn’t go to class and found out later that my professor was absent (LUCKY ME J)

-          I went to Megamall with KIRORO to have his cell phone fixed

-          We had lunch together

-          YOGI gave me the notes I need for my Physics subject

-          While I was staring at Kiroro I realized that I was thinking of YOGI the whole time

-          I realized I could also be happy with YOGI

-          I studied at a coffee shop with two of my favorite sorority sisters

-          I ate TAPSILOG. (One of my favorite rice meals)

January 6, 2009

January 6, 2009

January 5, 2009

January 5, 2009

-         Went to Megamall and Gateway to do some shopping ( though I wasn’t able to buy what I really wanted to buy because New Moon and Havaianas because they were out of stock)

-         I bought orange wallet (though I wanted the green one)

-         Bought a new blush-on

-         Pigged-out at Sbarro’s

-         I spent the whole afternoon with the guy I love